falling up...

11.08.08
Seattle,Wa

Boss is leaving today.
Been a long week
and now back to some peace
and this quest to center again.
He's leaving with Roux and Premdon
going to do hippy stuff
in the Humbolt nation.

We ate with the Mexicans
the Austrailians
and the Capitol Hill kings
stories and smoke rolled
Marpa turns 51
another fine feast at the lounge,
the last for awhile...

...I spend alittle time at Enoy
on sunday.
They are chamans who've
reeled this poor, but famous artist
in.
Many words shared
over that Mirror Pond
the words of Jack always get me
teared up
he finds the good in things
where I see none.

It is a world I find myself in
that eased the free fall
I felt some 2 months ago.
I aint fallin' down anymore
I am falling up.
All good.

28 days...


Be well todo mundo...

J.Level

Guess' we needed this....

05.08.08
Seattle,wa

...Spent two days with a traitor.
The brother tripped a trap
and took the incentive to act
under bad and possibily
biased advice...
no, totally biased advice...
trap tripped.

I forgave him.
He's a friend of 30 years whom
didn't know who I was,
went blind and crazy.
Didn't see
that nothing, is as it was.
I have seen many things
and been
squeezed
soul squeezed...
tryin' to be one that I wasn't,
for a decade...
Then I created
a love for someone....
and sabotaged it,
pure and simple.
I got angry.
My fault.
I came back here
to start again....
I have done so.
Nothing nuts about that.

So, walk a mile in my boot's, people,
find the valuable,,
valuable things
I left behind. Their still there...
I don't call,
I'm ashamed.
I've many regrets... I, fucked up.
My choice.
I live with it
me alone.
Ain't nothing nuts about that,
just another romantic
another emotional hiroshima
maybe it'll work itself out
but probably not.
The damage is done...
the brother agreed.
He's a true brother.
who has sabotaged...
and now understands.
I am blessed.
He is blessed.
We're fine now.
like brother's again.
I love him very much.

Next problem...

...and Blessings to my Lawyer,
Carl Stineburg...
...you'll take a painting for what I
owe ya, no...?.

All good ?
All good.

be well todo mundo,

J.Level

foto©slp 2007 " The studio in Portland, as I remember it... "

...the end of a scene

03.08.08
Vashon,Wa

.... thats the warehouse.
I am closing it down today.
It was a place I first painted big things
Really big things...
we shot how many films ?
plays and gatherings...? Tons.
The birthday party for Dani.
Myas and Steves wedding.
Myas and Steve's divorice party,
which was better than the wedding really,
they really fought like dogs, they fixed it.
They are still togeather, and happy.
Have a son named Kile, and he's 13 WO !
A happy, smart, handsome kid, they are blessed....
The guy 's from New Orleans that showed
up at 4;30 am to rehearse before their show
with Pearl Jam... long time ago.
I loved Tanisha in that warehouse
and she went away to become a great artist.
I loved Suzanne in that warehouse,
she went away to marry a millionaire
and is happy. The millionaire died,
and she's,
well,
a millionaire, living in France
with her son, Deamon.
My dad came there once for a week,
I smoked pot, and carried on with the plan.
He had a blast. We had a blast.
And I fell down the stairs once and busted
my knee up really good...
I took the first spainsh girl Pilar there...
She didn't get it.
Thought that living in a warehouse was too
primitive... she didn't get it.
She too married a millionaire
and is living in new Caceres,
that's Spain, and a good place for that one...
" too primitive..." indeed.

I'm moving the last stuff out today, giving back the keys
and am gone for good after 15 years.
Pulled out much treasure...
it's going out to the island.
Some to the girl, in Spain...
some to my brother...
spreadin' the stuff around...

The Island...
It's nice.
Everybodies nice.
It's nice.
I won't miss that old place.
Made me who I am today,
I don't need it anymore.
It's for rent again starting tommorow
I'll give you the number...
Going to the beach with the dog...

all good?
All good.

be well todo mundo,

J.Level

foto ©spl2008 " the warehouse 619 second ave. Seattle Wa. "

my strange artist friends...

02.08.08
Vashon, Wa.

... My friend Sara makes knife holders.
She was also in therapy for seven years.
Came by the house in middle earth
thinks it'd be a great studio...
Looking for more space
to fit in another artist
here on the ranch
We're makin' freakshow
it seems to have already started...
or has it simply never stopped ?

...33 days til this poor, but famous artist
returns to that weird and complicated land
Tickets booked
dates set
judges and lawyers
and cops waitin'
Gonna be a nightmare, friends
I am not looking forward
to being treated like a leaper
again... got run off once before,
the place and it's people mean little to
me anymore... I wish this would all go away.
33 days til I return
there will be an exit though
menos mal.

...here in middle earth
they will be waitin'
its better here.
all good.

COOL, the dogs up,
" Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat's up brother.....? "
that's the dog talkin'...
Blessed ?
Probably.

...what next lord?

Be well todo mundo,

J.Level


...and you there Styl666, thanks. I will return. It's all here now.
and I feel like I am alive again. The new painting sez it all...
You can call the number when you want, starting 20.08.08.
You are gettin' it. Don't push. I bite... JL

...talkin' dogs

31.07.08
Vashon,Wa.

a little sad today.
have all this beauty
all around,
and nobody to share it with...
don't seem fair,
so it does'nt.

Oh, here comes the dog...
ok so I'm not alone
but i need to teach this one
to talk...

another day in middle earth,
going acrossed the water again
the airport is spewing out
another long distance
traveler
got beer
got smoke
fridge is full
gas in the Jeep
and all should be right with the world...
I know whats missing,
and theres nothing I could do
to fill the void.
Good thing the dogs
a good listener...
would be better if she could talk though...
wish the girl would call...

another day on Vashon,
and another day in Amerika...

be well todo mundo,

J.Level

...the dog saw it before I...

28.07.08
Vashon,Wa.

...the sister Dog yowled right next
to my hand and then ate the biggest
got damed bug I had ever seen
She looked up at me and smiled
my tiny little 150 pound hero Dog
Got's my back, so she does.

So, there was nothing left to do but
smile
smile
smile today
We crossed the water to the other side
hot like Africa
to return to
middle earth's
cool
and shady jungle
another world.

...The dog split
I watered the jungle
and the other little dog
the flowers and emense weeds
smoked a bit
and smiled.
Was another day transforming
a west Seattle
view
from scuzz
to crystal clear...
everybody smiled today.
It's not as alarming nowaday's
as it was there in the beginning.
weird creatures so we are to adapt
and overcome with just some smiles...
smile, Neng


be well todo mundo,

J.Level


... and to you there Styl666...
I'd say thats about enough babe.
you'll be nice.
or I will start writtin' about YOU.
I am lookin for a villin to include...
Don't make me put my literary foot
in yo ass...
All smiles..., JL

..I just clean windows

25.07.08
Vashon,WA

... I just take my shoes off

and go in barefoot knowing all this will
look different in about 2 hours
The dog wanders around
and I have wonderful conversations
with whoever's there...
When I leave the light is different
and who evers there sez
" wow ! look at the light !!! "
I've cleaned the windows
not more. Just alittle attention
was all they needed to shine,
to let in the light that was there,
but covered with some stuff...
Like everything
and everyone...
I put my boots on.
The dog jumps in the Jeep
I tie the ladders on,
and we drive that lovely
drive back town
Earl
Don and Mike at Bishops...
then ,
to the house...
I made 324 bucks.
The dogs happy.
The windows are happy,
and all is right with the world,
in middle earth.

I'll share.
you always have a place
in middle earth, Neng...
always.


Be well todo mundo,

J. Level

....Just a small, gentel, well behaved 150 lb dog...

22.07.08
Vashon,Wa.

...Who'da thunk it ?
I call her " Dog ".
You'd love her, Neng...

Be well todo mundo,

J.Level

... the house in middle earth

21.07.08
Vashon,Wa.

... the dogs always waitin' at the door when the truck pulls up.
gots yer trees and bugs and things
that just grow ten feet taller
when your not lookin'...

I have never much cared
for that sorta thing before
yer bugs
as big as my hand,
trees,
or things that grow outta control
Camping ?
un pension de la mala muerte
sin tele...

Middle earth,
It's good for the dog
good for the art
... It's good.

Tommorow, a foto of the beast...

Be well todo mundo,

J.Level

Steel...

18.07.08
Vashon,Wa.

...The brother's
asked if I could come over to the other side to work on a special house...
" ...well, aint' this the most beautiful house we've done yet..." i said.
Spent the day tellin' Steel,
and listening to Steel
a huge guy,
as delicate as anyone I know.
taught me much,
this sensitive
enlightened man.

We ate on Alki beach,
then sat on the balcony of the most
beautiful home we've done to date,
smokin' and confessin'
I try not to confess....
but I do...
I am workin' on NOT
apoligizing
or critizing
or judging.
These Steel words,
"...don't judge
don't critizize
don't apoligize...".
All right
and just
to those around
and distant...

We ended at the home of a saint.
She had lived her life in India,
careing for those
without,
she said,
" ... You'll be fine...",
over her glasses.
I had said nothing,
she was reading
and I am used to doing
my Zen thing
without a sound
more than a
"Squeeeeek...",
rubber on glass...
and moving on to the next room.
"...You'll be fine..." she said.
"...I know...",
I said.

I think alot about the choices
and the words.
The thoughts
that were as loud
as the screaming ever was...
I won't do that again, Steel.

" ...you missed a spot
riiiiiiiiiighht there..." I pointed.
He gave me an evil,
but loving stare...

I am blessed to have these people in my life,
I know.
I know...

Another good day
transforming things...


Be well todo mundo,

J.Level

foto:c 2008 spl " my painting's on the front lawn of El Prado, Madrid. March 2008

...YOUR A GIRL !!!!!!!! no, non, niet.......

14.07.08
Vashon, wa


...we played the xbox
and everybody got bored fast.
not the xbox we thought it was.
Deception ?
or too low tech ?
you decide.
The boss is leaving for Eureka today,
and I will finally be alone
out here in middle earth
me and the lassie dog...
All good ?
All good.

be well todo mundo,

J.Level

foto c adm2008

Styl666,
you are always welcome. why did you never say you were a girl...?
sorta changes things... Don't need a girl, I gotta dog. So come play with the dog
he doesn't bite. I do though... jl

..." Your a lucky boy "

12.07.08
Vashon,Wa

...Weird folks I have in Seattle.
Marpa and Roux
Shanlin and those Austrailians
who brought the beer
and an XBox for me...
Blessed ?
Probably.

Working on the manison again today
we're taking pictures,
I will produce the film,
and the brothers will
make lunch.
I'm takin' the dog,
and another for back up.
Big as a house, so she is...
looks like Lassie and
will watch over the little ones
.
It's all comming back togeather.
Thank God...
been a long hard trip till today...


be well todo mundo,

J.Level

foto © ARD2008

... and Styl666, It will never be the same again. I am never going back.
You come here. Better for all...I'll find you a dog. Easier, no?

....A word from the President.

10.07.08
Seattle,Wa

... crossed the water today.
Been out there couple a weeks, and it is settin' in my bones.
That Island...
Don't feel like Cap Hill stands much of a chance.
Roux
He just said,
" I cannot believe you are going to live on the Vashon...
well, then again,
It's really perfect !
I say, it is a good Idea. "
He's called the " President "
by many from here to India
to Vashon,
and in Burton, that little peice of middle earth.
Blessed...?
You bet.
The plan is approved by the President,
What more can a brother say ?

I will put up the first peice when it's done.
Soon Styl666, soon.
I am fine, no really.
Thanks for the words...
I know.
this is better
for everyone.
Thank's.

All good ?
All good.

Be well todo mundo,

J. Level

foto c 2007spl

...Vashon

09.07.08
Vashon,Wa.

It is so very cool here
I wish you were here...
What i saw today drivin' to
a house that fit right into
the middle earth around it
spent a day looking as far north
as one could see...
the lady of the house awakened me,
" Nice, eh? "
" ...yeah, I wish I could share it..." I said.
" ... Share it with me for awhile,
then finish my damned windows ...ok ? "

So,
all's seemingly well.
I am not surprised
being immortal
an all...
ma o meno

Be well todo mundo,

J.Level

...on, " The brothers "

04.07.08
Seawa
eeuu

...the island was quiet, Domingo.
and finally commin' back to the real world,
on the otherside of the water...
the jets are still going right over the house...
people still movin'...
people talkin'...
the island was quite,
Domingo my dear old friend.

We, the brother's ate well
tennis on the big screen
smoke in the bowl...
and enough Trader Joe's wine
enough...there were words
devils lawyers
little last second defeats
and big amazon wins
the island was more quiet, Domingo.

Goin' out to the island to live
I am urban
but I like it out there in middle earth
think I'll get a dog.
think I'll start a new painting...
I think maybe I'm feelin' change...
weird feeeling Domingo
a weird feeling indeed.

be well todo mundo,

J. Level

foto©2008spl " The brothers at B.L.'s"