On .." The freak show and it's passing thru the Valley of the Shadow of Death " part 16 " Jesus, monkey tea, and thoughts of Death...

...and so the ride was already a long one.

LIL' Mocos slept on Jesus' lap.
Kickin' and whinin'
Chasin' a postman or a pizza delivery guy maybe...
Jesus looked at himself in the window, his face
Slappin' by the mercury vapor swells backround...
He looked old.
Amplified old...
Jesus said..." Man, I be lookin' old... Amplified old ."

"... Hey man, mind if I stand here awhile ? My leg's is a
gettin' just as numb as a dawgs brain...."
And Lil' Moco's jumped up and snarled a snarl
snappin' at Carl, the askee...

A calm Jesus said ... " Hey. Be cool..." Quietly. Firmly.
a moment,
Lil' Moco's looked at Jesus in the eyes...
He wanted to bite him, he'd caused so many
weird situations in his long and complicated life...
a moment passed
just a mili second
the order was set.
All it took.
Just two word's
and a look.
Pure Trust....
" Man that's a mean danm't dawg you got there mister
Damn't mean lil' bugger..." said Carl,
reachin' out a thin ' hand to Jesus' offered ,
thin hand...
Jesus said..." I'm Jesus, this is Lil' Moco's..."
Carl looked a Jesus
" Like the son of God and all that...Jesus..? " he asked,
Jesus said..." Yeah, you know, so a guy's gotta heavy father
or a really weirdly dominate shipping magnant dad
like Onassas or that guy ... what's his name...?

And Carl said..." Yeah I dig. You's a trustafari... sorta stuck like. I can dig that..."
said Carl, and passed Jesus a stick of Juicy Fruit...

..." Trustafaeri..." said Jesus, to himself.
" My god is this net ? I keep safely centered between these freaks and the reality
that there's always some net beneath me ?... or a key stashed somewhere
a phone number or address... A person is always there and glad to see us
and we can stay as long as we want..How come it's never hard ?..." thought Jesus...
Chewin' the Juicy Fruit gum...lil' Mocos a kickin'...

So, Where ya'll goin'...? " asked Carl, chompin' away
on a few sticks a juicyfruit...

Jesus thought..." Wonder if Death knows I'm gone yet...?
Ahhhh, I'm sorry, what did you say...? ".

To be continued...

Be well todo mundo,

J.Level

Foto: mustafa
c 2008 " on the freak show and it passing thru the valley of the shadow of death pt 16"

...it's as if their all lookin' at ya huh ?

22.09.08
Vashon,Wa.

...Things remain in flux.
rainin'
strange vibes
just like normal.
What next, hummm...

Be well todo mundo,

J.Level

lettin go...#5

It's done.
I feel free again.
Less weight.
Less hate.
Less...
Saw some awful shit go down
many lies
and betrayls
many lies...
many lies.
The words " I love you "
comming from anyone will
forever be so carefully examied and
weighed for it's potiental effects
and damages.
There will be no more words on this subject
or those paintings
It's done.
I have learned much.
Mostly bad,
but learned much...


J.Level

fotos:©spl2006 "Gato y Perro" 30x120 cm oil on linen. " Manolin live" 70x158cm oil on canvas

" Ultima cena con payasos" 70x60cm oil on canvas

Threats of a poker game...

20.09.08
Vashon,wa.

So I am home.
Feels real.
D. is cool as they get
sez theres to be
some high stakes poker ( 20$ limit)
a gonna be played around
the ranch.
Cool. Got that cool green visor
and surely can come up
with some Cuban cigars...
let's see then there's
chips and huge ham sandwiches
beer, lot's of beer
and those little beer nuts everyone will
eventually be throwing acrossed
the table at Don...
Real life,
in a real place called Middle Earth...
all good.

Be well todo mundo...

J. Level

...and a friend from portland said I spammed him
the other day when I sent out my new fone number
to the friends, family, and the faithful...you know
I punched "Everyone"... I spammed. I am a spammer.
I will never do that again. Advice: "...you put it in the "Bcc"
box, and it isn't included on the list of addresses that
show in the " To " list.... Never knew what that box was for
Now we all do. Can agitate some folks... Sorry Portland.
I'm in therapy, and will bring it up next week.... JL

lettin'go...#4

lettin' go... # 3

letting go...#2

letting go....

54

11.09.08
Oviedo,Espana

... It is as it is.
Came with some expections,
was told not to
but I like who you are.
Strong
powerful
and totally dedicated
to what you do
where you do it
who you are
and where you are...
Not a brother on the planet
that would disagree
your a good human being.
I can not offer more than what
you already have...
Done tryin'.

all good.
we will be fine.
you will be fine.
I will be fine.
Fine

Be well neng,

J

...that's that

10.09.08
Oviedo,Espana

The trial was a calm and adult thing.
In the end I wish the woman
luck, and more luck.
I will not be seeing the 86 paintings
She wouldn't say where they were,
and will pay the big price
payin' with ones freedom
all good.
I can leave knowing we did everything possible
tried to make a deal
tried to make another deal...
nope, she would not speak
at least not to me.
She never looked up from the ground the
entire time,
lookin' at hell ?
or those cool shoes ?

My friend and lawyer was brillant.
Judges, nice.
The fiscal asked " where can I see some of your work ? "
I pointed to the woman....

And that's that.
Came a long way,
for little,
Time to go to the next gig,
ya'll will be there too
if you just log in...

be well todo mundo,

J.Level

All good

07.09.08
Seattle,Wa.

...Crossed the water to the brother's
they had cooked and brought
alot of beer and many words.
I am supposed to...
Remain calm.
Call when I arrive.
Spend little.
Talk no shit.
No begging.
No apoligizing.
Bring nothing back
but what you left for.
Don't fuck anything up.
Don't break anything.
Get on the plane
come back happy...
" That is an order "... said Steel.

I have it, brothers.
I have it very clear.

Everybody be nice.



J.Level

...another day in Amerika pt.2

05.09.08
Vashon,Wa.

...3 days until the freakshow begins again
I am not looking forward to it friends
Prayin' ta the big guy
prayin' just to keep things cool
keep things " nice "
or nice enough
Aint' no reason
to say anything more than....
I aint' really here,
I'm back on Vashon
sun's just comming up
the dogs waitin' at the door to take me to the beach
and we are sittin' and she's eatin'
stuff...a happy dog, so she is.

All will be well.
Things to do
and better off without those people,
that country
and their cold and indifferent ways...

So, survive the week
and get rewarded with a trip to
the weirdest place on the planet...
K. invited me,
should'nt suck at all.
Not bad.
Not bad at all....


be well todo mundo....

J.Level

...at the beach

02.09.08
Vashon,Wa.

Got cold this morning.
Walked out to see the fog
blow thru the mountains
down thru the sound...
Reminded me of San Francisco
sittin' on Mike Pughs back porch
the fog rollin' down Mason from
the bay around four
like wave's

We smoked and laughed...
made weird video
and he tought me the meaning
of surreal for surreal's sake...

Mike made contact the other day,
said to come on down when
the funk wore off.

...I thought about him this morning
the dog ate something
green
then threw up
then smiled...
gotta love that dog.

All good ?
All good.

...be well todo mundo,

J.Level